The successes of yesterday have continued into today. I awoke early, made my bed, said my supplications, did all 12 steps of QIgong meditation, and then did most of the first half of the first course of Ana Forrest Daily Intensives. Sitting down to write, I noticed that Vishuddha was still hot and bright, even though I had tried working with and breathing intensely into it during my yoga practice. (Perhaps the reason it was so bright and hot is because I was working with it during practice.)
Encasing it in a box of loving swastikas changed things, as did a conscious effort to define the area of the 5th chakra and keep it from overwhelming (primarily the left-hand, rear quadrant of) the Anahata or 4th chakra. Since confining the Vishuddha the rate at which self-shaming and self-loathing thoughts occur has dropped considerably from a few every minute to one or two an hour. The intensity of the self-sabotage has changed as well, moving from mind-enveloping strength to easily ignored numbness.
Part of my shift in self-perception has been thanks to Chapter 8 from the Tao Te Ching (translation by Jonathan Star): The best way to life is to be like water For water benefits all things and goes against none of them It provides for all people and even cleanses those places a man is loath to go In this way it is just like Tao. This morning’s dreams included many people sitting around talking in a large wooden courtroom, with at least three of the persons present being closely watched over by uniformed guards (who were always positioned in such a way as to have their backs turned toward me).
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Encasing it in a box of loving swastikas changed things, as did a conscious effort to define the area of the 5th chakra and keep it from overwhelming (primarily the left-hand, rear quadrant of) the Anahata or 4th chakra. Since confining the Vishuddha the rate at which self-shaming and self-loathing thoughts occur has dropped considerably from a few every minute to one or two an hour. The intensity of the self-sabotage has changed as well, moving from mind-enveloping strength to easily ignored numbness.
Part of my shift in self-perception has been thanks to Chapter 8 from the Tao Te Ching (translation by Jonathan Star): The best way to life is to be like water For water benefits all things and goes against none of them It provides for all people and even cleanses those places a man is loath to go In this way it is just like Tao. This morning’s dreams included many people sitting around talking in a large wooden courtroom, with at least three of the persons present being closely watched over by uniformed guards (who were always positioned in such a way as to have their backs turned toward me).
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